helloow!! it's been quite long since the last time i've made a serious news post, there may or may not be a sudden influx of those, i've kind of tinkered with the idea of starting a blog -- sharing some thoughts, being a bit more sincere etc.

i guess the purpose of this one is to catch up a bit, to tell you what's been going on. i'm a bit shit at communicating and haven't really felt the need to do any upkeep on telling people what i'm up to, but i recall doing it pretty regularly on newgrounds a few years ago. maybe it wouldn't hurt to have a few posts up for myself to look back on at least.

the most major thing of interest is obviously going to be my latest album, called Bedrotting, it's available on:

Spotify

YouTube

Bandcamp

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the story behind the name is quite simple -- i broke my leg not long ago and during the healing process, i had done a lot of bedrotting, in simpler terms, just laying in bed for many many hours. during said recovery, luckily i had a crappy laptop to help keep me sane and occupied, and so i made a bunch of beats with it. check it out. the first half is the one people go for usually - it's got some overcompressed electronic farts i know people like. the latter half is more ambient and relaxed, an acquired taste for connoisseurs.

being confined in a room and flat with such limited movement has given me a lot of opportunities to question both myself and the people around me. this whole ordeal was a great wake up call for myself to stop being so reckless and apathetic towards my own health and well-being. it also showed me who really is a friend and who is just a mere drinking buddy. people i thought were kind of close to me didn't even bother to console me (nor even ask about it until we met to drink) and shrugged it off, and called me an idiot pretty much, which I was, and i appreciate the honest truth, but it's not really helpful for me to hear what I already know. it's kind of dramatic to realize that quite a bit of your friends are really just there to ask you out on a drinking rampage and be a +1 in a birthday party and not even ask you how you are doing.

thankfully though, I did have family around me, and people who actually gave a shit, to at least tell me that I'll be back on track, that shit happens, and that asked me how i'm doing, which is much appreciated. my lovely girlfriend kept me sane and despite the fact that i was a sad sorry pathetic piece of shit that couldn't even walk a step across the room, she was always around, would always respond and root for me to get better. i'm forever grateful for having someone like that around -- i'm very used to people being a bit apathetic and having to deal with life entirely by myself, but having companionship that doesn't berate you for making honest mistakes is unlike anything i have ever experienced.

but that whole ordeal is now in the past, the way i like to look at it is as some sort of divine intervention to stop me from being constantly on the run without a break, and god himself pulled me on my hand to fall onto the ground and rest a bit, without the choice to stand up, to get some character development, and perhaps to have a mean and unpleasant story to tell to my kids -- to not be stupid like me haha

i have recovered successfully, i am back home in my capital, back at work, on the grind, all the good stuff. just how it used to be pretty much. the only side effect being that i can't dance jumpstyle at 3am in some secluded street anymore. sad! but alas, thus is life.

i guess that's it for now, there's not much else to say! perhaps one day i'll make a post completely unrelated to anything, maybe I'll write some crazy stories that happened last year. who knows!! stay tuned!!! have a good day, and i hope you are all okay!